March 15, 2011

The temptation to PROVE

Ok, Ok...I admit it, every now and then I get caught up trying to prove myself worthy of "you name it"...

I end up trying to prove myself when I think the world is out to get me...
I end up trying to prove myself when I feel that someone thinks that I am not capable of something.
I end up trying to prove that I belong when I feel like an outsider....
I end up trying to prove that I have it all together (when it's obvious that I don't :))

The problem is that often I am trying to prove myself, or work myself into a situation or an end goal of a place or outcome that God doesn't want for me. Basically, in a nutshell...I end up in a battle with my flesh, a battle of my will, and in these times I am trying to get control of a situation without seeking God.

I stumbled into one of these moments today and was met with grace, and came home with a deep sense of freedom. I have been trying to prove myself in an area that is so obviously not God's plan for my life, I have been trying to earn approval & acceptance that I already have because I belong to Christ. I have been so focused on proving myself in this one area that I have been missing what is is that God DOES have for me in this season of life. Let me tell you proving & striving are so overrated:)

I am so thankful for moments with Jesus like today...moments where he gently whispers, "Hey little one, this would be a lot easier if you would surrender. I really just want you to be ....YOU... and to be MINE. You may be fragile, but you have this GREAT TREASURE that no one can take from you...and you don't have to prove yourself to earn it...or to keep it. It's yours, because you belong to me!" 2 Corinthians 4:7

Then, I finally surrender...
And I suddenly feel freedom...& peace

Ever have moments of trying to prove yourself? What does that look like in your life?


  1. A struggle I have, sometimes, is proving who or what I am NOT. This, too, becomes destructive and distracting to God's plan in my life. Thanks for sharing this, sis!

  2. I have done that too Wendy. Thanks for reminding me of that Love you!